Many years ago I was interested in learning more about A Course in Miracles. At the time I had a small metaphysical store that I now think of my place of awakening.
One day in December a man walked in and wanted to start A Course in Miracles study group. I was in - at least until he told me he wanted the group to commit to doing a lesson a day and reading a part in the text for a whole year. I wasn't ready to make that type of commitment, but knowing I would do my own thing anyway, I agreed.
On January 1st we started to meet weekly in the back room, with only three of us. The meetings were magical! Being sensitive to energy I could feel the presence of Jesus and the transmission of the words as we read the text and did the lesson of the day.
Many times I felt that Jesus wanted to speak through me at these meetings. I squelched it, not believing for a second that I was worthy of this. How would people react to me if they knew? Who would I be, or become? I am crying, writing this, as I now know how to let the words flow through me when I am doing healing work.
As the months went on, the only thing I wanted to do every day was the Course and I made it through the whole year. Others joined us in our sacred space and instead of allowing the feeling of the words to wash over us, it became a place to discuss the meaning of the words. Because I never receive the words on an intellectual level, I decided to study on my own.
There have been times when I threw my book down, vowing that it was a bunch of bull. I always went back because it reaches me at my core. After going through the Course many times, I would not say that I believe every word or thought, but each time I receive it on a deeper level. Sometimes, I only get a few words read and I go into a state I call Grace ~ that place of connection, receive and giving.
I have learned that the Course is very personal and there is no wrong way to do it. If you get stuck on the words, just allow yourself to be in a place of not knowing, and just moving on to the next lesson. Most of all, be in a state of receiving.
If you have a story, please share. Love, Misty